“Your heart is the beacon, your heart is the storm. Dare to embrace it; you’ll never be torn.”
― Vanna Bonta
Have you ever noticed how it can get really hot and the air feels thick and still and you start craving a storm to come and break the tension?
The rain starts pouring and cleanses away the thick stagnant energy in the air and the thunder and lightning break up the congestion and bring in fresh, vibrant energy.
The same thing can happen within us – if we feel stuck, stagnant, or under heavy pressure a good emotional release can function like the storm does, breaking up the tension and allowing us to feel cleansed.
What happens if the pressure doesn’t get released?
It may appear calm for a while, but a hurricane or tornado could be brewing- violent, unexpected and destructive.
Your inner storm has the power to cleanse and rejuvenate – or to overpower and destroy.
A memory is calling me…
Years ago, I worked at a call center as a Loyalty Care agent for the local cable/phone company.
I really struggled in that environment, surrounded by electronics and people.
Every call was a complaint, someone wanting to cancel and vent their frustrations on the employees.
I was surrounded by people who were sick and tired, who were constantly being subjected to the energy of the callers, who were also sick and tired.
The worst part about the job was that there was no green space around the building.
On my breaks I would want nothing more than to ground out all the stress and electrical energy, but there was no trees, no fields, flowers or grass.
I began driving a short distance as there was an alfalfa field nearby where I could park my car and be surrounded by Mama earth for a few minutes on my lunch break.
The gophers would chirp to each other, the bees would be happily buzzing through the field and I could breathe for a minute, and experience some energetic space.
My energy body is very large, and this was before I learned to consciously bring my aura in tight to my body upon command, so I would spend the day at work feeling all the *stuff* not only from myself but from many of the people surrounding me.
Having physical space felt like a luxury.
One day, I was out in the field on a lunch break and I felt the wind picking up.
The gophers stopped chirping, the birds sought shelter, and the clouds began whirling.
The sky turned steely grey and I realized a storm was brewing.
The air felt charged with electric potential and I did not want to go back to work just yet.
In that moment, I chose to be with the storm.
I didn’t run from it, or fear it.
I acknowledged it with great respect for it’s beauty and power, and I stood, barefoot in the field, watching the sky open up above me.
I began to do a moving meditation, incorporating breathwork, visualization, and Reiki.
In that moment I was aware of my singularity *and* my connection to all things.
In that moment, I released the pressure.
After a few minutes, I was able to return to work feeling renewed – like a great weight had been lifted – or rather, transmuted to light.
Storms are powerful, cleansing, energizing forces of nature.
There is always a choice, in every moment.
In the moments we are faced with internal storms, we can:
- run from the feelings,
- distract ourselves from the magnitude of their force with any number of things,
- or we can surrender to the storm and allow it to release the pressure
We can acknowledge that we are a small part of something incredibly powerful, and in that moment we can take the opportunity we are being offered with the greatest respect.
“The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it…”
― Nicholas Sparks
I am moving through an inner storm right now.
For weeks the tension has been building silently inside of me while the bundle of emotions within me rises, coming closer to the surface of my awareness.
It feels heavy, and it feels overwhelming sometimes.
If this was a different time in my life, and I had not learned what I know now about emotional storms, I would run from it.
I would numb out, pretend everything was fine and stubbornly look the other way, ignoring the oncoming storm.
And it would gain strength and swiftness, fed by my lack of awareness, building intensity until it manifested as an emotional hurricane – a destructive outpouring of repressed emotion and inner turmoil.
Today, I sat with my inner storm, and I cried.
I allowed myself to hold space for my emotions, to respect their power and the opportunity they present, to know myself more deeply, and to recognize the truth they hold.
The opportunity to pour love on my inner wounds, and to nourish and self-care in the way that my inner self is crying out for.
“Don’t be ashamed to weep; ’tis right to grieve. Tears are only water, and flowers, trees, and fruit cannot grow without water. But there must be sunlight also. A wounded heart will heal in time, and when it does, the memory and love of our lost ones is sealed inside to comfort us.”
― Brian Jacques
There is heavy storm energy moving through not only me, but my hometown as well right now.
For weeks we have been experiencing hot, sticky, thick weather with the occasional extreme thunderstorm – in fact, there is a severe thunderstorm watch in effect for our area today.
It is nothing short of magical how our inner world affects our outer world.
I am sure there are many of us feeling the pressure right now.
Today, I welcome you to sit with your emotions.
To hold space for them, to hear what they have to say.
Not in a space of self-pity or blaming others, but in a space of acceptance, where you can acknowledge the part of yourself that is hurting, or angry, or feeling unloved.
Where you can say, softly, to your heart,
“Thank you for the lesson, I love you.”
This is emotional alchemy.
This is the gift that our inner storms have the power to bestow.
Sometimes we spend our whole lives running from the inner storm, so afraid to witness that hurt, so afraid that it will overpower us.
Sometimes we forget that nothing can make us feel more cleansed, energized and alive than a good storm.
From the heart,
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